Let me just pause and say that I'm not emphasizing "again" to ridicule mom or try to show anger about this whole ordeal. So if you're reading it with that tone, I want to change that now. I'm emphasizing that this is a recurring cycle that seriously disrupts Cookie's (and now her baby brother's) life in a way that we were trying to stop. I'm NOT mad. I'm frustrated. I'm worried about what will happen to mom and Cookie individually. I'm concerned about the long-term emotional effects on both kids--but especially Cookie, who is about to turn 4 and is starting to understand more of what is going on in her environment. I'm anxious about whether or not a judge is going to finally give this child stability. I am NOT ridiculing mom. Mom is caught in a vicious grip of something that she has overcome more than once against many odds stacked against her; but it is a very vicious thing--and it was shocking that she overcame it at all, but not shocking when she cannot keep it up. Not because of her personal weakness. She is stronger than most to have overcome these addictions and kept herself clean as long as she has given the length of time she used where the heroin has literally, physically rewired her brain.