I want Cookie to come back, but I really just want it to be over. I want to know. I want to move on one way or another. I want to grieve, or I want to prepare.

I want the flight to be over.

I want purging and cleaning the house to be over.

I want to be able to focus on reconnecting with Graham.

I want to know that the delays in finalizing the baby's adoption are not malicious and manipulative tactics based on money.

I just want everything to be done and simple and loving and clean. I'm overwhelmed, and having a really, really hard time. :(