I forgot to add that Cookie hasn't seen her Early Intervention therapist since she went home. I realize this may actually be (partially) the therapist. But I wish it were just ammunition to show that this mother isn't effectively advocating for a child with special needs. I'm just angry now. Angry and bitter.

I couldn't sleep at ALL last night. All I've been able to do is wonder what Cookie is doing and what is happening to her now. Is she happy? Is she crying and nobody is paying attention? Will this turn around? Or will it get worse? And if it gets worse, how bad will it get before the state steps in and removes her?

She was SUCH A HAPPY BABY. It sickens me to think that she's going to live an unhappy and uncomfortable life that is bad--but not bad enough to warrant removal. Yeah--lots of kids live that way. But they didn't live here in my house very happily for their entire life and then go to that.

I just feel sick.